Sleepy weirds

I don’t really know how to sleep. I’ve never really known i just thought it was one of those things that nobody really knew. I suddenly realized i didn’t know what to do with my arms when i went to bed. Do i tuck one under and leave the other one outside the covers on my side, ready for some intruder deflection? Do i cross them across my chest like i’m going down a water slide? Do i put one arm under my pillow and use my shoulder as a second pillow? I overthink it and toss and turn in discomfort. When i do use my shoulder as a pillow i wake up in such pain but it’s oddly comfortable at the moment for bringing such discomfort

I have yet to find the perfect pillow setup. Two pillows or one big puffy enough one but they’re still too squishy. But the hard ones are weird and either hurt my head or they bulge and not in the good way. I have probably a dozen bed pillows because i keep buying different weights and firm and soft and memory foam and whateverthefuckelse.

Everyone says their pillow is the best cure-all. Well, I’m still waiting. and trying to master sleeping.

Speaking of overthinking…and unable to control my body parts….

I went to the dentist the other day and couldn’t figure out what to do with my tongue. I was overthinking it therefore making it impossible for me to just leave it out of the way and not move it. It seemed simple enough. But no, no I could not do that. I kept trying to hold my tongue back but the more I would try to hold it still, it would move more. then I was trying to look at it from her perspective like, where should I put it so that it’s out of her way? Also I wanna make sure I’m being a good patient. And now I just think about how I love my dentist and all the staff how they just seem to nurture me there. I like that they’re all women and very kind, fun and funny. It’s a sister owned dental practice.

Kbye